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Just an update before I sleep
Mar. 23rd, 2005 03:50 amI jinxed my Lab 6. Right after I posted about it, I accidently clicked the design screen closed while trying to fix one little thing and no matter what I did it was hopelessly broken. I've spent most of the time since then trying to start over. The program itself was a problem. It wouldn't open the design window at all anymore. After downloading three different versions of the program, I finally got one that would let me design again and had the program finished in less than an hour. It's emailed off to my instructor.
Lab 7 is impossibly difficult. I can't even figure out where to start designing it. Most of the class just finished lab 6 and hadn't started lab 7 on Monday. If he grades on a curve, maybe I won't need to do it at all. *hopes*
Today I met with the Career counselor at school. I didn't know about her until last week when I was talking to my instructor about what class would be best to take to get re-employed fastest. He said she was my best bet. Nasa/Ames has an internship program I could probably get into. I went directly to the computer lab and got an appointment. She went over my resume with me and said it was well-written but really should be two separate resumes. She's going to do that for me! We're meeting again next week. The Nasa/Ames intership program won't kick in until summer. I'll go to the talk next month. To actually work at Nasa, you have to be a US citizen. Most of the people who apply have green cards so they're not eligible. Nasa also has "legacy" computer systems, so there's a fairly decent chance I'll be able to use my old language there. In the meantime, she says she gets calls from local businesses all the time and sends resumes to them.
After I told her my frustrations with Java and the fact that it evolves so fast, she said I might want to consider another path; computer repair. Software development is rapidly leaving the US because it's cheaper to have offshore programmers do it. Repair can't be moved off-shore. They've got a program preparing people for Microsoft A+ certification. That's going to be my best bet for getting employed quickly. I sent an email off to my cousin who is a networking guru to get his opinion and planned to discuss it with Eric when he got home.
He was very upset when he got home. I really couldn't talk to him about anything in depth. Finally, I point-blank asked him what was wrong and he told me. He'd paid the bills this morning and the bonus money he'd planned to use to refurbish his computer was eaten up. My peppy mood was crushed. I was right back in the slippery black pit of depression. If I were working, he could upgrade his computer. It took me about half an hour to realize I was letting his mood set mine. I've been fighting too hard to break out of depression to let it settle in again so easily. I was starting dinner when that realization hit me. I'm not responsible for his moods and I'm not required by any vows to feel whatever he's feeling. Being depressed is probably why I've stayed unemployed so long. Depressed, desperate people are not the kind of employees people want.
When dinner was cooking and I had a few minutes to sit down, I came back to the living room and told Eric that things are changing for the better. I feel it. That's the truth, too. I've been feeling a positive shift. I explained about how I can't let depression take over again. I'm staying positive. I have to.
As soon as he finished dinner, he went to bed. I guess I'm on my own for this decision unless he brightens up in the next day or two. I'd really like his input. The money won't be as good as programming, but the counselor says every student who passes the certification test gets a job right away.
Maybe being assimilated by the Microsoft Borg won't be horrible.
Lab 7 is impossibly difficult. I can't even figure out where to start designing it. Most of the class just finished lab 6 and hadn't started lab 7 on Monday. If he grades on a curve, maybe I won't need to do it at all. *hopes*
Today I met with the Career counselor at school. I didn't know about her until last week when I was talking to my instructor about what class would be best to take to get re-employed fastest. He said she was my best bet. Nasa/Ames has an internship program I could probably get into. I went directly to the computer lab and got an appointment. She went over my resume with me and said it was well-written but really should be two separate resumes. She's going to do that for me! We're meeting again next week. The Nasa/Ames intership program won't kick in until summer. I'll go to the talk next month. To actually work at Nasa, you have to be a US citizen. Most of the people who apply have green cards so they're not eligible. Nasa also has "legacy" computer systems, so there's a fairly decent chance I'll be able to use my old language there. In the meantime, she says she gets calls from local businesses all the time and sends resumes to them.
After I told her my frustrations with Java and the fact that it evolves so fast, she said I might want to consider another path; computer repair. Software development is rapidly leaving the US because it's cheaper to have offshore programmers do it. Repair can't be moved off-shore. They've got a program preparing people for Microsoft A+ certification. That's going to be my best bet for getting employed quickly. I sent an email off to my cousin who is a networking guru to get his opinion and planned to discuss it with Eric when he got home.
He was very upset when he got home. I really couldn't talk to him about anything in depth. Finally, I point-blank asked him what was wrong and he told me. He'd paid the bills this morning and the bonus money he'd planned to use to refurbish his computer was eaten up. My peppy mood was crushed. I was right back in the slippery black pit of depression. If I were working, he could upgrade his computer. It took me about half an hour to realize I was letting his mood set mine. I've been fighting too hard to break out of depression to let it settle in again so easily. I was starting dinner when that realization hit me. I'm not responsible for his moods and I'm not required by any vows to feel whatever he's feeling. Being depressed is probably why I've stayed unemployed so long. Depressed, desperate people are not the kind of employees people want.
When dinner was cooking and I had a few minutes to sit down, I came back to the living room and told Eric that things are changing for the better. I feel it. That's the truth, too. I've been feeling a positive shift. I explained about how I can't let depression take over again. I'm staying positive. I have to.
As soon as he finished dinner, he went to bed. I guess I'm on my own for this decision unless he brightens up in the next day or two. I'd really like his input. The money won't be as good as programming, but the counselor says every student who passes the certification test gets a job right away.
Maybe being assimilated by the Microsoft Borg won't be horrible.
