heh. I used to be the "connsummate housekeeper." When I was married to the ex-husband, the transgender one -- after 10 years of marriage, and funnily enough, just AFTER I paid for his BAND habit, his MOUNTAIN BIKE habit and his fucking Ph.D. at Carnegie Mellon. THAT'S when he "figured out" that he was a friggin tranny.
Anyway -- this is a very freudian thing. You have to "control" your surroundings or make lists or clean your floor when you feel that you life it out of control. It makes sense, really. You feel that you have no control over your life right now (because you have lost your job and are not earning what you are used to) therefore you compensate for this by being anally tidy. Or you have (actually) skipped three steps ahead of what I did and are just not cleaning more than is absolutely required.
Either way --- you are going through a PHASE. You will pass out of it. You may never be the clean freak that you once were (as in my case). Even so. Most likely you will have reached a higher plane of happiness.
Don't listen to other people and CERTAINLY don't let them make you feel badly about yourself.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
no subject
Date: 2005-03-26 08:08 am (UTC)Anyway -- this is a very freudian thing. You have to "control" your surroundings or make lists or clean your floor when you feel that you life it out of control. It makes sense, really. You feel that you have no control over your life right now (because you have lost your job and are not earning what you are used to) therefore you compensate for this by being anally tidy. Or you have (actually) skipped three steps ahead of what I did and are just not cleaning more than is absolutely required.
Either way --- you are going through a PHASE. You will pass out of it. You may never be the clean freak that you once were (as in my case). Even so. Most likely you will have reached a higher plane of happiness.
Don't listen to other people and CERTAINLY don't let them make you feel badly about yourself.