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I've always thought the description of Cancer fit me pretty well, but didn't think the part about me withdrawing into my shell if injured fit.
Two things made me really notice I've done exactly that since my Dad died. My hubby and his shrink had a fifteen minute misunderstanding about an appointment time change, so I answered the phone when his shrink was looking for him. Eric's shrink is a really great guy. I'd see him myself if our insurance covered it, but he's not in the plan. Eric is willing to pay full price and drive a distance, but I'm not.
Anyway, I answered the phone and talked to him for a few minutes. Eric thought his appointment was for 8:30pm and the shrink thought it was 8:15pm. Once we had established that, he asked how I was doing - truly concerned. I told him I was OK and not OK at times. I told him I was just coming out of a deep depression after visiting my dad's grave for the first time because it just hit me hard that Daddy was really gone. He asked if Eric had gone with me, and I said "No, I didn't give him an option. He didn't know I was going." His shrink said he hoped if I decided to learn to swim or ride a bike that I'd have somebody with me. That made me giggle. I told him I knew how to grieve, I'd done it many times before. This was just more intense. He sounded relieved and acknowledged that grief was a personal thing. I said I just needed some time alone with my dad. He said there was nothing wrong with that. Then we said goodbye and hung up. From what Eric told me, he was probably walking in the door just at that moment.
The next thing was at my intuitive skills class on Wednesday. I missed the first class - reading objects - because of the last voice-over class with the LA agents. So I got to meet several new people and hug several people I already know. I got to know two new people pretty well because the class was sensing auras and reading chakras. Both of the new people read my second chakra (Color: orange - Holds: emotions, creativity, sexuality) and both of them read that I'm currently taking in more support than I'm giving out and that I believe it should be a balanced give and take thing. The pendulum for me is in the needy section right now.
Good information. I really don't like to take more than I give at any time. But I do realize that I can't give what I don't have. So I've withdrawn a bit from everything that requires emotional committment.
It's frustrating that I don't seem to have time to keep up with all of you and to be there for all of you when you need support. I trust that the universe will fill in the gap until I'm more able to re-engage. I've been trying to catch up as I can. I don't always comment just because... I'm kind of empty right now.
This sounds like a bad break-up line - It's not you, it's me. LOL
I'll be back in my old routine soon which includes all of you my dear, dear friends!
Lots of love and Hugs to all of you!
Two things made me really notice I've done exactly that since my Dad died. My hubby and his shrink had a fifteen minute misunderstanding about an appointment time change, so I answered the phone when his shrink was looking for him. Eric's shrink is a really great guy. I'd see him myself if our insurance covered it, but he's not in the plan. Eric is willing to pay full price and drive a distance, but I'm not.
Anyway, I answered the phone and talked to him for a few minutes. Eric thought his appointment was for 8:30pm and the shrink thought it was 8:15pm. Once we had established that, he asked how I was doing - truly concerned. I told him I was OK and not OK at times. I told him I was just coming out of a deep depression after visiting my dad's grave for the first time because it just hit me hard that Daddy was really gone. He asked if Eric had gone with me, and I said "No, I didn't give him an option. He didn't know I was going." His shrink said he hoped if I decided to learn to swim or ride a bike that I'd have somebody with me. That made me giggle. I told him I knew how to grieve, I'd done it many times before. This was just more intense. He sounded relieved and acknowledged that grief was a personal thing. I said I just needed some time alone with my dad. He said there was nothing wrong with that. Then we said goodbye and hung up. From what Eric told me, he was probably walking in the door just at that moment.
The next thing was at my intuitive skills class on Wednesday. I missed the first class - reading objects - because of the last voice-over class with the LA agents. So I got to meet several new people and hug several people I already know. I got to know two new people pretty well because the class was sensing auras and reading chakras. Both of the new people read my second chakra (Color: orange - Holds: emotions, creativity, sexuality) and both of them read that I'm currently taking in more support than I'm giving out and that I believe it should be a balanced give and take thing. The pendulum for me is in the needy section right now.
Good information. I really don't like to take more than I give at any time. But I do realize that I can't give what I don't have. So I've withdrawn a bit from everything that requires emotional committment.
It's frustrating that I don't seem to have time to keep up with all of you and to be there for all of you when you need support. I trust that the universe will fill in the gap until I'm more able to re-engage. I've been trying to catch up as I can. I don't always comment just because... I'm kind of empty right now.
This sounds like a bad break-up line - It's not you, it's me. LOL
I'll be back in my old routine soon which includes all of you my dear, dear friends!
Lots of love and Hugs to all of you!
